In January of 2018, I learned through the guidance of my therapist that I developed a preoccupied insecure attachment during my childhood. A new understanding of who I am and why I react the way I do in many situations. With my therapist's guidance, I was able to begin the work on gaining a secure attachment, and within 4 months gained the strength needed in order to quit my job working for the family business and travel to SE Asia for six weeks in order to discover life with a different perspective, outside of the daily motions I lived in back at home.
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​Looking for a career change, I attended a baking program in England in 2021-2022. While learning the ins and outs of artisanal baking, both breads and pattisserie/ viennoiserie, I also continued developing with the new mindset I was building with self love at my foundation. From both trips I have learned how important it is for me to leave all of the comfort I know at home, to authentically learn about who I am as an individual versus the person I was molded into based on external validation.
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For the curious, the blogs below will take you through that journey and what was going on in my head. As much as the sights and socializing was something I was looking forward to, the mental challenges and therefore development which was intertwined was the purpose of the trip. To keep gaining security in a world I unfortunately grew up to fear.